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The Get To Know Me Tag // Lifestyle

Hey cats!

I like to think that I'm quite an open person but I feel that social media like Instagram and Twitter can sometimes give quite a narrow view of what a person is really like; I wanted to do this tag so people can see a bit more of how open I like to be & after putting a poll on Twitter people said they wanted to see this so I hope I can give you more of an insight!

What is your middle name?

Victoria

What is your favourite colour?

Without a doubt it's green! I've always been drawn to the colour but I chose it as my fave colour in school about age 7 because no one else would pick it as theirs and I felt sorry for it...yup

Who was your first best friend?

My first ever best friend was a girl called Jade, she was my favourite person to play out with/spend time around and she gave me her only Posh Spice sticker in class one day to cheer me up. Sadly she passed away because of a brain tumour when she was 6; it was my first ever experience of death and I still miss her to this day

How tall are you?

I am a tidgy 5ft

Cats or dogs?

I do love both but I guess I'd have to say cats purely because you rarely have to clean up after them and I've never actually owned a dog!

Funniest moment throughout school?

For me, every day of Primary school was funny but I really didn't enjoy High School at all. In fact I missed 2 years of it in Year 8 and Year 10 because of Glandular Fever, so I found it quite funny that I still left with As, Bs and Cs despite me missing all that time, being bullied consistently and having been forgotten about by all my teachers. Karma eh?

How many countries have you visited?

Erm, I'm not much of a traveller so 3 I think (France, Portugal & Greece)

Are you in/gone to college?

I've been there, done that, went to Uni, bought the hoodie and now I'm back at college again doing a diploma!

What was your favourite/worst subject in High School?

Favourite has got to be either English or Science and worst is without a doubt Maths

What is your favourite drink?

Soft drink would be sparkling lemon water; alcoholic drink is hands down lager & lime

What is your favourite animal?

Bats! They're so cute but can be super creepy too, love them! Plus they used to live in our roof and it was the best thing ever watching them out of the window every night

What is your favourite perfume?

Probably Flight of Fancy by Anna Sui. There's just something about the smell that takes me straight back to my happiest college days sat in the park with all my friends. Pure, delicious nostalgia

Tea or Coffee?

COFFEE! Preferably as black as my soul

What would you (or have you) name your children?

I don't have children yet but I honestly have no clue, I think I'd come up with names nearer to knowing my lil babas!

What sports do you play/have you played?

Since I was ill in school I developed Chronic Fatigue and have struggled massively with my health, so sport is off the menu these days! But before that I was the most energetic child and I loved rugby and rounders!

What is your favourite book?

Probably The Savage Garden by Mark Mills

Who are some of your favourite YouTubers?

I don't watch many 'beauty/fashion' YTs, the two I do watch are Helen Anderson & Rhiannon Ashlee

I love watching gamers like Markiplier, JackSepticEye, Daz Games and PewDiePie

I may have a guilty pleasure in watching Dr Pimple Popper!

What is your favourite movie?

Without a doubt it's Nightmare Before Christmas and always has been. The Rocky Horror Picture Show is an extremely close second though!

Are you Single or Taken?

Taken for 3+ years

What's your idea of an ideal first date?

Dressing up a bit, going for a mooch, grab a meal somewhere and then maybe head back to the pub for drinks, chatter and some pool

How many girlfriends/boyfriends have you had?

6 including my current

Favourite memory from childhood?

Going to Disneyland Paris for the first time, it was so magical and I adored every minute. I would love to go back again now

Do you speak any different languages and how well?

I don't! I know little bits here and there of French, Spanish & Portuguese but it's hella rusty

Do you have any siblings?

Nope I'm ~~spoilt rotten~~ an only child!

How would you describe your fashion sense?

A mix between glorious hippie queen & 'I just rolled out of bed'

What is your favourite restaurant?

This is a toughie! I think I'm going to have to go with Wagamama (most oriental food wins my heart though)

What are some of your favourite tv shows?

There's so many: GoT, OITNB, iZombie, Suits, Supernatural, Grimm, Scorpion, Bottom, The Young Ones, Jackass, Arrow, Once Upon a Time, Castle, Sherlock, Ghost Whisperer, Nurse Jackie & any nature documentaries to name but a few!

PC or Mac?

Only a recent convert but Mac, it's the best thing ever

What phone do you have? (iOS v Android?)

I just upgraded recently to the iPhone 6, happy with it so far and having it sync with my Mac makes life much easier!

Tell us one of your bad habits!

Hoarding/buying too much, its such a difficult one to break

Anything you want to know? Let's get chatting!

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Losing My Editing Virginity! // Storytime

achievement 22:00

As the crude title suggests, I actually used video editing software for the very first time in my 24 years on this earth! This may seem small to some but for me this was a big achievement in a long line of things I'm hoping to accomplish at some point this year and beyond. A lot of things I wanted to do this year but I'm learning to be more realistic with my goals and accept that anything I achieve whether it be now or down the line is still a big thing. I'm only human and I shouldn't put so much pressure on myself. Albeit this post is public, for me it's more of a personal record of what I've done and how it made me feel (which is great when I'm on a downer and trying to chuck my life out of the window metaphorically). If anyone can gain some insight or this gives you a boost into finally doing something you've wanted to do but have been putting off then I'll be a million times happier and will feel like I've achieved so much more.

Okay, so what did I use exactly? Nothing special of course, the only thing I had to hand is Windows Movie Maker - an outdated version at that - but for me personally that seemed like an excellent (not to mention simple) place to start considering it was free and at my immediate disposal. However, my first try didn't run too smoothly and if I hadn't attempted it again then this blog post wouldn't exist and I would most likely still be in a complete funk thinking I'm stupid and I can't do anything. First lesson there, don't give up/if at first you don't succeed try and try again/insert other cliché sayings here. This first failing was completely down to a defect in my personality which means I don't read instructions or do my research first, I instead just blaze in balls to the wall and get everything completely wrong thus contributing to a self-fulfilling prophecy of "I can never do anything".

After a week of moping my stubborn side kicked in and assured me I wouldn't be defeated, so I calmly looked up some help videos, got to grips with the software and then I decided to film a practice video to edit. Filming was an experience and a hellishly awkward one at that. Now, I feel I'm a seasoned expert in the way of talking to myself (and my cat) but as soon as I was sat in front of a camera my anxiety took over, I struggled to make eye contact and my limbs were out of control with nerves. I have such respect for people who do YouTube as a job, as I know many suffer also with issues such as depression or anxiety and honestly I was quite shocked at myself that I was so affected. Nevertheless I powered through because the filming wasn't entirely important, I just needed something to edit. Baby steps and all that. But the experience in itself was significant, and as a person that albeit doesn't read instructions, does actually like to plan for things and craves being prepared for upcoming projects. It made me aware that if I do start to film and put videos on YouTube, I know for sure that I need to do it for myself and no one else, so that I can build my confidence, be able to do spontaneous and unscripted things and also have a good time and keep a record of those memories; without them being edited to perfection. If anyone happens to like what I do then so be it, I'd be just as happy. I believe you've always got to start with yourself and do things for you; know that it isn't a selfish way of behaving.

Anyway back to the topic at hand - the editing. Just to break things up and not get too bogged down I'm going to go ahead and bullet point this for everyone's benefit:

Holy hell editing is tedious and not at all easy, it's also very frustrating when it just doesn't DO what you want it to do (nor does it acknowledge you shouting at the screen)
Once finished I noticed I'd spent nearly 2 hours editing an 8 minute video. My hands ached and so did my head, I'd also forgotten to eat and drink
Despite these things, the sense of accomplishment and achievement after I'd finished was overwhelming. I could do it, I could achieve goals and I could work technology!
I felt proud and much more capable but at the same time I was only at the very start and have a long way to go in terms of learning and improving. I was left with mainly positives and of course these little niggles in the back of my mind - could I commit that much time, could I be bothered, was it worth it?
I think it's worth it, the other two I'll have to get back to you on

Looking to the future, whatever the outcome I know this is something I want to pursue in order to further myself and fulfil a long standing personal goal. I worry horrendously about so many things but instead of worrying I should just set simple, easily achievable goals and do things occasionally that aren't for other people. I truly believe you always have to start with yourself and practice self-care before even considering everything else in life. If we constantly shove our own needs aside we'd cease to function. I want to be brave, so I'm going for it! I imagine I'll keep these entries going each time I feel I need to document any progress.

Is there anything you're looking to achieve this Summer/this year?